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(no subject) [Dec. 28th, 2009|11:07 pm]
Make tea, not war
[Current Music |Okkervil River - Plus Ones]

AAAH! Ridiculous lengths of time have passed since I posted here.

I have a new Livejournal--one that i've been using mostly for comms in the past few months. I hope I make an attempt continue actively LJing. I have no idea if anyone actually still reads this, but if so, new me is: asianonymous . So much for being anonymous.

A lot of things have happened during my absence from LJ. My immune system crashed and burned; I must've seen 8 or 9 different doctors during the year.  In the spring, I suffered from a severe existential crisis during which I considered dropping out of college to pursue adventures, delusional interests.  wtf. I don't understand myself either.
(Maybe I wasn't delusional, just scared.)

Summer was a torpid, emotional mess (somehow the two adjectives work together) and resulted in me spontaneously spending most of my earnings on a flight to Chicago to save my sanity.

I've struggled so much to figure out where my life is headed and what I want to do with it. I still don't know. This past quarter has been so mentally exhausting. I've had to deal with the most ridiculous things with people, friends. I wish I could scream about the foolishness of it all, but recounting everything is more energy than it's worth. I'm happy with school and work, and I'm more in love than I ever have been before. I could be so, so content, but there are  things that nag at me constantly, that I wish I could post about. I don't know.

I'm so glad that 2009 is coming to a close, but I'm scared too. I wish I had just one extra week here in Utah to relax, think, and see old friends, but I fly out Sunday morning.

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Oh hello LJ. [Aug. 5th, 2009|11:20 pm]
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Normally I use WMP, but iTunes has been winning me over. Meme time!

How many songs in total: 11033

Most recently played: The Decemberists - The Mariner's Revenge Song
Most played: Great Lake Swimmers - Your Rocky Spine
Most recently added: Acid House Kings - Do What You Wanna Do

Sort by song title
First Song: Neutral Milk Hotel - A&E Melody
Last Song: Final Fantasy - ->
In the alphabet it's: Pavement - Zurich is Stained

Sort by time
Shortest Song: The Lawrence Arms - Intro
Longest Song: OK Go - Untitled Bonus Track

Sort by album
First album: Wilco - A.M.
Last album: Kids Like Us - 80s Are Dead

First song that comes up on Shuffle: The Trucks - Zombie

Search the following and state how many songs come up:
Death - 133
Life - 152
Love - 412
Hate - 49
You - 1216
Sex - 89
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that night. [Jun. 7th, 2009|08:13 pm]
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I want to remember when he kissed me by the lake, with Chicago glittering in the distance, and how I would've fucked him then and there, outside, if I didn't have a kidney infection.
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spring shows. [Mar. 3rd, 2009|09:45 pm]
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And then I'm going to Mountain Goats in Chicago less than a week later!

fuck yeahhhhh.
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This is all I have to say. [Feb. 20th, 2009|12:07 pm]
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!I have Mountain Goats tickets!
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i speak in smoke signals, and you answer in code [Feb. 6th, 2009|12:05 pm]
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I spent every night of the week with him, hardly slept, and think I did terribly my chem midterm.

this doesn't worry me as much as it should.

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time and sanity. [Feb. 3rd, 2009|10:07 pm]
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[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]

...mostly I was wondering how many girls had been there before me. I don't think I really care, but I'm curious.

I am epic-failing at working; I keep nodding off. Tonight is not the night for metasemiotics, legitimacy, amphoteric oxides, or whatever the hell else I should be working on.

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x-posting here b/c i'm lame like that. [Jan. 13th, 2009|11:31 pm]
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I'm blogging on what's left of my battery power in my dorm's study lounge, where I've been spending half my days lately. I was here most of the day, yet I only got a fraction of my work done. This is so bad. I don't know if I'm just incredibly slow at working or if I have issues focusing or if I'm just plain stupid. Maybe a mix of all three.

One of my essays for my anthro class is Violence as Semiotic Activity in relation to Beah's A Long Way Gone. I don't fully understand this metasign, social indexicality, reflexvity, object-sign, etc, etc, etc crap, and quite frankly (and sadly), I find that it takes away some of the book's power for me. The book is so honest and raw (I think I cried through half of it). Analyzing for semiotics for a paper seems to sort of desensitize and trivialize (and I hesitate to use this word because the book deals with issues I care stongly about, but I guess it gets the point across) the true events for me. Maybe (read: probably) I'm just confused .
Odd, I didn't feel this way when reading Das on Collective Violence. Hm, I look forward to writing that essay much more; I'm not really sure why I attempted to tackle this one first.

a;osdijf;af WHYYYY am I blogging? Once again, BAD TIME-MANAGEMENT. The realization always hits me mid-post!

p.s. I've been sleeping ~6.5 hours a night, which is more than I ever got most nights in high school, but I still feel really tired. x<

p.p.s. my roommate has just informed me that Plate-Steve arrived at our door with a fake mustache for me. This is awesome because Plate-Steve is one of those people who you think is dope even if you've never met him, and I've always wanted a fake mustache.
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I love this, but why am I here again? [Jan. 12th, 2009|12:12 pm]
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I don't know what I want.


Or maybe I'm just too afraid to let go of what I have.

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Wtf. [Jan. 9th, 2009|12:38 am]
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WTF?.....My friend just asked me to film a bedroom scene with him when I'm back in Utah over the summer.


Should I be flattered or sketched out?

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